Oscar is growing up so quickly and each day we learn something new about him. We are learning the best ways to settle him and beginning to differentiate between his cries.
Candice started back at work last Thursday and things at home haven’t been as easy as I thought. After the perfect week we had when we first arrived home, Oscar has finally found his lungs. We had our first difficult day late last week where he spent the whole afternoon being fussy. I didn’t know what to do as it was the first time he had been like that. It was quite a hot day so I tried cooling him off but all he wanted was for me to hold him and feed him. As soon as I would begin to feed him he would fall asleep but wake and cry the second I would try to put him down. This continued until Candice got home from work at 5pm. It was a stressful day and by the end I thought maybe he wasn’t getting enough milk from me. Candice suggested that we try and give him a bottle of formula to see if he settled after that. We gave it to him and then he fell asleep for 4 hours. Naturally I immediately thought that he must have been starving. I then started stressing about my milk supply and tried to research the best ways to increase it. However, that night I was sent an article explaining that all babies tend to get fussy and that it’s perfectly normal. It also said that after this fussy time, babies will often go down for their longest sleep of the day. Oscar has been peeing/pooing like crazy as well as putting on weight consistently, which would indicate that he is getting plenty of milk from me. The next day he was fussy at exactly the same time but instead of resorting to a bottle we pushed through and I continued to breast feed and hold him. At almost the same time as the day before he fell asleep and then stayed asleep for about 4 hours. I haven’t been as concerned about my milk supply since then and I’m just continuing to feed him on demand. Sometimes that’s every 3 hours and sometimes, like last night, it’s every hour. I’ve read that it’s the best way to increase milk supply so as painful as it can get, that’s the way it is for the time being.
Having a newborn really teaches a higher level of patience. It doesn’t matter how tired you are, how grumpy you are. It doesn’t matter how defeated. If that baby is crying, you put on a happy voice to distract him or a soothing voice to calm him. Even when all you want to do is slump down in the corner of the room and cry from exhaustion, you can’t. He is all instinct and he needs you. I have had 2 particularly difficult days with Oscar where I have broken down and cried. His little cry truly breaks my heart and when I’m unable to figure out what’s wrong, I feel horrible. Lack of sleep combined with post pregnancy hormones can really make a mess of you!
It’s taken all day just to write this short post but I got there in the end.
I’m very, very tired, almost deliriously so, but happy. Candice and I love laying in bed and listening to his little baby noises. Adorable!