Oscar is now 4 weeks old and over the last few days it seems that he is really starting to become less of a newborn and more of a baby. He is spending more time awake in the mornings and evenings, eyeballing everything in his sight. He likes to stare at our faces, with serious confusion in his eyes, as we pull faces at him. Makes me feel a little silly. We both think his first smile must be just around the corner and we’re desperate to see it. From what we have read, babies tend to start grinning around 6-8 weeks but they can start earlier so hopefully we don’t have long to wait!
Yesterday was a good day, great in fact. Oscar was settling very easily, sleeping for decent periods of time and in a very undemanding mood. Usually I’m holding and feeding him constantly in the afternoons so it was a nice change from what had become the norm. I was confused for a lot of the day, wondering what was going on. Asking myself, why is he being so good today? He continued to be a perfect baby well into the night and I started to get excited that maybe the past few weeks have just been a growth spurt and now it’s over. I am pleased to report that so far today, he is continuing to be an angel. This could be the start of something great!
A confession. I have started feeling quite lonely lately. Being hulled up at home all day long, unable to drive yet or walk far, is starting to take it’s toll on me. I’m not really the type of person that enjoys feeling confined and I can’t wait to get out and about again. I miss the company of adults and the ease of making plans to see them. I know it’s only a few more weeks until I can drive again but in the meantime there is a little cloud following me around the house.
I really enjoy Fridays and get pretty excited when they finally roll around. It is the same excitement I would feel when I was still working. The, “yay, it’s almost the weekend!”, excited feeling. I have been surprised at how physically and mentally exhausted I feel by the end of the week. Surprised, because for a large majority of my day I am sitting. Just sitting and watching movies, while holding and feeding a baby. It’s shockingly draining and not something I expected at all. Lucky today just happens to be Friday!
As slow as some days seem to be, this last month has zoomed by. We are excited to see Oscar’s personality grow and encourage him to reach new milestones but at the same time, we’re going to miss this tiny baby stage. I was looking through an album on my phone and started crying at the photos that were taken in those first few days in the hospital. Just his smallness, his sweetness and his helplessness. I’m getting teary right now just thinking about it. Hormone danger alert, I repeat, hormone danger alert.