Sleep. Sleep? Sleep!!

First up, this is probably going to be a short post. Right this minute Oscar is asleep… Finally. Some days he really puts up a fight and it leaves us both so drained and exhausted.

There has been a lot of crying today, mostly from him but a little from me. I hate not being able to comfort and settle him! Candice has been doing overtime at work most days lately as it’s really busy. On one hand this is good as it means a bit more money each week but on the other it’s really hard for me. By the time she gets home I feel so ruined and honestly a little down. Not every day, just the hard ones. And boy, oh boy, today is a hard one.

Oscar just woke up and after feeding, changing, rocking him back to sleep, putting him down, then picking him up, repeat, he is passed out on my chest and I’m now typing this post from my phone as I can’t reach the laptop anymore. I don’t want to risk waking him again by even moving. I’m been trying to figure out what is wrong with him and why he is so unsettled and gassy. It has to be from my breast milk since that’s all he eats but I can’t pin point the cause. I’ve already started eliminating dairy from my diet but now I’m suss on onion/garlic. Who knows.

Candice won’t be home from work until late tonight. It’s 7.30pm right now and she doesn’t expect to be leaving for a few more hours yet. I keep going back and forth in my head about whether or not to call my mum and ask if she could come over just to give me a little break. I know she wouldn’t mind but I feel bad asking as I know she would have her own things she needs to take care of after work.

I’m also realising that have a problem with letting other people settle Oscar when he is upset. I can’t stand hearing him cry and having to listen to someone attempting to settle him, unsuccessfully, kills me. I try and wait as long as I can but eventually I can’t help but take him off them and try to do it myself. I know it’s not fair to that person but I swear it literally hurts me when he cries like that. My headache intensifies and my left shoulder nerves ping. Candice is actually pretty good at getting him to sleep and my own mum is known as the ‘baby whisperer’ but I still think in both cases I would still try to take him off them to settle him myself. I need to stop this.

I feel like I am completely rambling right now. My phone is on 9% battery charge so I had better wrap this up. Let’s hope tomorrow is a better day. Here are a few photos of Oscar in dreamland. How sweet and peaceful does he look when he isn’t fighting sleep…

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6 thoughts on “Sleep. Sleep? Sleep!!

  1. Sending all my sleepy calm vibes I have right over to you. I guess sometimes parenting can be tiring. Just know you’re doing a great job with Oscar. I know it brings no relief but it’s all I can do. 💕


  2. Aaaww hun. I remember these days well! I’ve mentioned it before but have another look at the Wonder Weeks app. It has always been helpful for me to explain why Bubs might be acting the way they are. Taking a guess Oscar is probably going through the first leap and signs are:

    •Crying without a normal reason such as a dirty diaper, hunger, or sleep

    •Only quiet when he is with you

    •Suddenly wants much more physical contact. For instance, your baby only wants to sleep when he lies in your arms, or he suddenly wants to sleep feeling belly-to-belly contact.

    •Wants to be breast fed more often. This is very normal and very good. Breastfeed your baby upon request. Does he want the breast more often? The WHO (World Health Organization) advises that you give it to him!

    Also just remember they say the first 6 weeks are the hardest and omg they sure are! I promise it gets easier. I did my fair share of crying those first weeks too. I used to have to walk him around in his ergo until 2am when he would FINALLY have a couple of hours sleep.

    I also completely bet the hating to hear him cry when other people are trying to settle him. A few times I have taken Parker off Nat when she was trying to settle him and went about it all the wrong way and upset her. It’s just i couldn’t deal with the crying and hearing my baby sound so sad. It wasn’t Nat’s fault. It’s not anyone’s fault. There was a time my mum and dad tried to settle him (I had to get ready to go out) and he screamed and I was about a second away from going ‘actually you know what, it’s fine I’m just going to take him home’. Now I really really GET his cries so I can differentiate when I should step in or not but if he’s just being whingy for Nat I let him go. But yeah it’s hard because when they’re only a few weeks old everything is so serious for them.

    You’re doing a great job. He’s absolutely gorgeous so don’t be to hard on yourself.

    Sorry for the ramble. Lol
    Talk soon!
    H x


  3. Aww…it’s so hard in the beginning. Trying to figure out what’s wrong with them is tough…but try not to stress too much, I think sometimes they just cry….and cry and cry!
    You are a great mum and I promise it will get easier.



  4. I was going to mention the wonder weeks app also! If Kiran is having a hard time I will check it to see if a leap is expected. It can be reassuring to know it is a normal phase. It is definitely exhausting! I didn’t have a baby carrier when Kiran was young so I ended up moving my feeding chair in to the lounge room and watching tv while he slept on me- whatever works hey 🙂


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