Things have been quiet around here.
Candice is back at work and Oscar and I have fallen back into our daily routine. To break up the days, I have been trying to get out of the house a bit more. Visiting family and going on walks, nothing major. I’ve had a few ‘down days’, though up until now I have been reluctant to mention it to anyone. I don’t think it’s post natal depression, I really don’t know what it is. I don’t feel down all the time, it’s inconsistent. Certainly not everyday but when I do it’s always when I’m laying in bed late at night (usually exhausted) trying to sleep. I get feelings of anxiety and sadness, none of which are in relation to Oscar. That boy honestly brightens my day and being around him actually makes me feel lighter, happy and overall positive. Just thinking about him now makes me smile. I find myself worrying about things that don’t matter and then I can’t seem to shake that yucky feeling. It keeps me awake and then I worry even more about how tired I’m going to be the next day. I’m sure it will pass and in the meantime, I plan to keep busy and get out of the house as much as I can.
Oscar has been extra cuddly these last few days.
Call me crazy but I think he knows when his mummy is in need of hugs.